The Quarterback

When Cory Monteith passed away on July 13, 2013, I was deeply affected by his passing.  At that time, my daughter and I had watched Glee on a regular basis and Cory played one of my favorite characters on the show, Finn Hudson.  So, when Glee: The Quarterback aired on October 10, 2013 and everybody was saying how they cried through the entire episode (even those people who didn’t normally watch the show), I decided to wait to watch it.  I needed to give myself more time and distance.

Well, today, with the death of Philip Seymour Hoffman, I decided it was time to view the Glee farewell episode to Finn Hudson.  And, everyone was right, I cried non-stop from the opening scene until the closing scene.  I guess it was inevitable.  I’m an overly-emotional person to begin with.  It doesn’t take much to get me to cry.  This episode had me sobbing every time a new scene was introduced.  I actually had to pause the episode and various intervals just to give myself a chance to breathe.

One of the quotes that touched me more than anything was when Carole, Finn’s mom, said:

“You know, when I would see that stuff on the news, I would shut it off because it was just too horrible to think, but I would always think, ‘how do they wake up every day?’ I mean, how do they…how do they breathe, honey? But you do wake up. And for just a second, you forget. And then, oh, you remember. And it’s like getting that call again and again, every time. You don’t get to stop waking up. You have to keep on being a parent even though you don’t have a child anymore.”


And then there is the quote:

“You know what’s tripping me up? This line between the two years. That’s his whole life. Everything that happened is in that line.”

The coach’s response was priceless as well:

“What are you going to do with your line?”

It really got me thinking about my line.  What meaning will it have on those that I leave behind?  I didn’t do much in my life so far.  I don’t know how many people’s lives I’ve touched.  I know there are some who will remember me when I’m gone.  There might even be some who will feel a hole in their lives when I am no longer there.  But how much impact will my life (or death, such as it is) really have on those people?

“Whatever you do will be insignificant, but it is very important that you do it.”

― Mahatma Gandhi


I am a 43-year-old, single mom of 19-year-old boy/girl twins living in an extremely small town in rural Texas. Currently, I am employed as a Site Supervisor for a prominent corporation that provides security officers for homes and businesses.

15 thoughts on “The Quarterback

  1. Absolutely my daughter will turn 21 on the 18th but I note Cory was born a year later and will never turn 21. What a tragic loss, so young so talented and no doubt a good person, though we’ve never met.

    • I didn’t even think of that. Thank you for commenting. The scene with Finn’s mom, Carole, really got to me. I had to pause the episode several times at that point because it really affected me. I couldn’t help but relate to what she was saying. I’ve never lost a child, but I can’t imagine ever losing my children. It’s not natural to bury your child.

      • No it is against nature. I too haven’t had the pain of burying a child. It would be unimaginable and I don’t know how parents carry on after. I have an only child and she makes my life meaning. She leads her own life but it is comforting to know she exists and we have an unbreakable bond.

        I know a good friend who lost her teenage son to suicide. That is any parent’s worse nightmare. I admire her courage and strength in making sure life is as normal as it can be for the other two younger kids. She said it was what he wanted and there is no anger. She is incredible. She visits his grave every tuesday, the day he chose out. She found him in the garage.

    • Normally, I would agree, but in this case, it is an episode that makes you depressed even if you aren’t depressed already. It is heartbreaking. Cory will be missed for so many reasons.

    • I would definitely pick a day when I was extremely happy to watch it, if I were you. Today wasn’t a good day for me to chose to watch it. I keep listening to Aimee Mann’s “Wise Up” over an over now. I’m pretty sure that’s not healthy.

  2. I haven’t been able to see that episode yet due to my exams but I was really saddened about Cory’s death. I have his songs in my playlist and whenever I hear his voice I cant believe that he’s gone and we wont be able to hear his beautiful voice again. Specially the song he sang “Girls just wanna have fun” on glee is just too heartbreaking.

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